OY VEY!

Thank you all
for creating this colouring exercise
for me!

As you can guess, from the title,
it was not easy for me!

My reaction to the vomity,
deathly beigeness of metallic bronze,
provoked a DEEPLY unpleasant reaction.

I felt almost rageful
having to work with this colour and,
even though I really like the other colours,
to my eye, they made the metallic bronze
even more hideos.

Through my rage and disgust,
I found this to be a very effective exercise
because if anything makes me feel that way,
I know it needs resolving.

I realized this colour reminds me
of several unpleasant things
but, as I experienced myself hating
this colour so much, it actually made me
feel protective of the colour,
in the sense that nothing, not even a colour
should be hated like that.

I became determined to improve
my feelings for the colour, largely
for the sake of the colour itself!
Weird, but effective.

A STEP IN THE
RIGHT DIRECTION

Since my negative experience
of poor, innocent metallic bronze was worsened
by the other colours in the first drawing,
I decided that it would help me feel better
about it if I put it in a colour grouping that
worked better for me.

I felt much better about metallic bronze
in this second drawing but still not great!

Instead of rage, I felt dull and empty
in a way. The colouring didn’t have its
usual enjoyment but I did feel a sense
of peace because I definitely improved
my relationship with metallic bronze.

I’ve always known that colours were
extremely powerful but I didn’t realize
that they can hurt as much as abusive
words or deeply negative experiences.
The interesting this is that, even though
I believe I healed the things that
metallic bronze reminds me of, I
didn’t heal the colour itself!

Colours are so incredibly
valuable to us as far as helping us
heal, learn and grow.

Thanks again for giving me a powerful
experience I never would have had!
Now, when I look at this drawing
I actually like it.

SWEET RELIEF!

My reward for the harrowing,
yet ultimately rewarding metallic bronze
journey, was to do some art that I really enjoyed!

I did 4 pieces in all today
and this one was my favourite
in terms of 8eautiful, creative flow.

I made it into a colouring page for you!

I titled it,
The Good Life.

1) As you colour, think about
what this phrase means to you.

2) Write down three things
you already have that
make your life good.

3) Write down three things
you are creating to make your life
even better.